01/03/2017

Play |A word for 2017|

I'm at a messy place right now - intentionally. Somehow, there's an unusual urge of "rebellion" - questioning everything - even the things I Know to be true. My excuse? Quite a neglectful one: my word for the year.



A memory kept coming to my mind for the past months, bugging me more than it ever did. It was the memory of a job interview with a bon-vivant Italian hotel director. Life for him was exploring the senses as much as he could - good food, good wine, parties, passion -  (not love but passion, he insisted). We talked a lot - he had a lot to say and he was, I believe, a bit intrigued by me.

At the end of the interview, he told me I was too young to be so serious, I should relax and play more. It was a personal advice, not a professional one, and he meant it both as an insult as perplexion, implying I was missing out on life.

I remember it felt weird to hear but I was so damn secure about who I was  ( as self-thought into life young women can be) that I didn't think much about it then, nor I remembered it for the years to come.

Until recently.  And then it wouldn't get out of my mind.

If I reason with this, though, I know I've made the right choices in my life. So what I am I doing? I don´t know. I guess I'm just playing with different approaches, as much as I can. Maybe there is something noteworthy that I've missed?  I'm filling my schedule and my life of different things. Things I usually don't do.  It is messy - it feels messy, there's a voice in the back of my mind saying, you know better, this isn't the way, and then there's the same inner voice that says - you'll be fine, you know where to come back to if you need.

Confused? Yes, so I am. Things might get weird over here, too. (Hope you'll endure some strangeness with me).

7 comments:

  1. Absolutely! I am fascinated. I often think 'What will I do when I have everything sorted?' Maybe I'll play Cristiana ! x

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    1. Why wait? Play now, big or small :)

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  2. It sounds like a good kind of confusion Cristiana. And weird? No problem! I can certainly relate to that. :-) Animals play, children play, and yet for some reason as adults we feel guilty about it... Funny really when you think that play is how we learn, create, relax, laugh, celebrate... the list goes on. I hope you have a wonderfully playful year - I look forward to hearing more.

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    1. I've certainly been feeling "guilty" of a lot lately but that's ok - it's also a sign that my mind is slowly shifting to a playful mindset because I don't let it stop me!

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  3. Freda and Lotta, a sincere thank you for providing a safe ground for mine wanderings. You inspire me every day, I certainly wouldn't be on this journey if it weren't for the ideas you both plant in my mind. Happy international women's day!

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  4. Querida Cristiana! Já há muito que não passava por estes "mundos" virtuais, e ainda bem que hoje o fiz! É sempre um gosto visitar este teu cantinho, e partilho daqui o entusiasmo pelas portas que se hão-de abrir nesta tua caminhada! Que coincidência essa questão do tal bon-vivant italiano... Faz-me acreditar que as coisas têm mesmo um tempo e um lugar para acontecerem, mesmo que na altura não consigamos perceber isso. A Providência sabe o que faz ;)

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    1. Querida Inês! Para mim é que é sempre um gosto ler as tuas palavras, no teu blogue (que fiquei muito triste por não encontrar on-line...), e aqui, onde serás sempre bem-vinda!

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